.different.

so today...

i guess i have done some deeds.

and jgn dilupe..dosa pown aku wat skali koyt.. hehe ;)

anyways,

coretan dan renungan buat hari ini:

KALO ORG TAK SAYANG KITE, KITE BOLE RASE KN???

DAN KALO ORG DA KURANG SAYANGKAN KITE POWN KITE DPT RASE JGAK KAN??

hurmm ade la jaoh d sudut hati; aku trase dis particular person been treating me in a different way.

but the question is..kalo ini yg dirase anda-anda semua adakah anda akn confront org itu??

atau anda akn biarkan shja prasaan itu terpendam dan terperuk saje dlm hati..??

and there's one more thing, i've my reason nape aku lbey suke dok luar dr umah aku sndri..

tiap kali aku blik ade jerh yg akn mguris hati aku..

byk benda n byk faktor;

and to nurafiqah shukor: kt skolah km emo bersebab dan antara sebab nyer adalah ini; i'm not that happy at home.

that's the pure truth.

well.

back to our persoalan aku usulkan td..

kalo kiter rase org tuh cm da x syg kite..haruskah kite biarkn atau confront die dan ckp..

if you don't love me anymore then why are you doing this to me?

tp...

if you still love that person, will you ever let them go?

hurmmm....

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i wish..

there's a lot of thing out there that i wish for before i met you;

but the only thing i wish when i have met you..

that is to love you with all my heart for eternity.

i have never hesitated...

i knew that you're the only ONE.

but sometimes...

i do feel...

unappreciated.

you ask me to understand.

i do understand..

but i'm afraid that i understand too well.

you'll forget to ever treat me the same again.

i have never ever wish for you to be romantic;

but there's times where i envy those around me..

they have been treated like they're in heaven..

they felt loved.

as i look at them.

i wish you could do the same..

but maybe you're different.

i still love you.

i do.

and i never stop loving you.

but sometimes i wish you can understand..

i am just normal woman..

who needs someone to turn to...

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HEART

heart;

if you're taking anat & physio...(anatomy and physiology) you've probably learned that the brain controlled most of our body except the HEART.

it's kinda weird since our body can tell us to drink..indulge our food and stuffs but it actually cannot control our heart. Our heart is myogenic that is; it is fully capable of depending on itself to continue pounding and directing oxygen to every nano-inch part of our body.

but;

the other thing that the brain cannot tell the heart:

FEELINGS..yeap...feelings.

we cannot control how much we are going to love a person.

we cannot control how caring we can be when we cared about that particular person..

and most importantly;

we can never tell our hearts to fall in love with someone we wanted.

for instance...you saw this laki yg sgt sgt sgt hot...but can you really tell you're heart..

*oooo please please dear heart...fall in love wif that guy...*

or;

let say you're facing the greatest heart break ever-can you really tell you're heart to just ignored the fact that your heart is broken to pieces???

yeahh sure you can blow it off for few hours..but;

when your friends isn't around..your family is far from you..

and there, left you and your memories..

you'll definitely think about the break up.

*why is it over?*

*why did she do this to me?*

*why??? ooo why???*

haha..our heart and our brain constantly fighting with one another.

brain: oiii do la your job.

heart: i can't. i'm to misery to move on..

brain: misery your head! misery takkan bawak bole tolong kau jwb final la ngeng!

heart: tp...tak bole!tak bole!! huuhuuhuu~

but then again;

anda dpt mnjauhi diri anda itu dri berfikiran merapu-meraban..

surround yourself wif laughter,friends...

or;

occupied yourself wif tons of stuffs to do..

then you'll be off

happy,at least for a while but it's worth it.

or;

you can buy some time.

they said time is a great healer! (hehe)

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under the weather

i don't ask much.

just enuff if you show me that you appreciate me.

tq

=/

boneka

aku hanya boneka.

boneka permainan yg kau ada.

aku hanya boneka.

yg ada ut dipertonton tp x pernah rasa dhargai.

aku hanya boneka.

dan sering disini,walau kau di sana mngharapkan yg lebih.

aku hanya boneka.

yang dicari ketika diperlukan dan dibuang di saat kau gumbira.

aku hanya suatu boneka.

hanya boneka.

boneka.

dan aku tetap hanya sebuah boneka.

boneka dalam hidop sendiri.

terima kasih hidop,

sekurang-kurangnya..

boneka ini ada nyawa,namun..

hati ini kecewa tak mungkin mahu hidup lagi.....

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energy!!!

GUD MOWINK MALAYSIA!!!!!!

*energetic la kunun*

so.

today.

saye akn stdy!stdy!stdy!

=)

feels so rite..

dunno why but..

yesh im gonna stdy..

toddles~

ooo~and yes,

each time i blink,i remember you're smile ^_^

i miss you so muchhhh...

abg, i love you.

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sang puteri

kali ini miss kawaii ingin bercerita;

cerita ttg sang puteri.

bkn puteri ngeri slangor ke...ngeri perok ke ngeri ape2 pown la..

tp ttg seorg gadis.

al kesah sang puteri bermula pabila dia mule mngenali dunia.

dia blajar prasaan skeliling.

prasaan insan.

sang puteri blajar ttg suatu fitrah mnusia yg digelar; PERASAAN

sang puteri hny blajar ttg prasaan dr keadaan skeliling.

sang puteri x berasal dr sbuah kluarga yg smpurna..

sang puteri ade ibu,ade bapa, ade adik-bradik ttpi hny sbagai ckop syarat utk dpanggil sbagai keluarga.

sang puteri x prnah slhkan sesiape..

mngkin slh sang puteri sndri..bg sang puteri: die x ckop layak tuk keluarganya sndri.

lalu..

sang puteri sering mnyendiri..

sang puteri sering mngukir mimpi.impian. seringkali sang puteri melakar mimpinya itu di ats lngit malam..

bg sang puteri;

stiap bintang yg tercipta,yg terlihat merupakan stiap harapan utk die sndri utk beranjak ke dpn..

satu hari..

sang puteri jatoh..

ssh benar sang puteri ingin berdiri semula.

dan hadir seorg jejaka mnolongnya.

sang jejaka mngiringi sang puteri meniti mimpinya..

dlm prjalanan mniti impian,memenuhi sbuah mimpi..sang puteri trase...trase prasaan yg dia plajari selama ini;

perasaan cinta.

diam sang puteri x bermakna sang puteri x prnah sdeyh.

adakala ktika d sisi sang jejaka...ang puteri trase kcil skali..

jaoh dlm lubok atin sang puteri "dia tidak layak utk sang jejaka"

ttpi sang puteri gagahi jgak onak dan duri bsame sang jejaka.

sang puteri ada kalanya lemah..

ttpi tiba hari...hari d mana sang jejaka x dpt menemani sang puteri sperti yg sang puteri khendaki.

sang puteri keseorangan lg.

keseorangan x brmkna sang puteri x cinta.

sang puteri cinta.sang puteri rindu.

sang puteri berdoa spanjang hari; agar Tuhan memakbulkan doanya..

sang puteri tabah.sang puteri kuat.sang puteri snyum ;)

itu la rempah ratus idop sang puteri.

nasihat saye pd sang puteri:

never let go.

hope is always there.

be strong.

when you have no shoulder to cry on.

remember that you have your own shoulder to cry on.

there's nothing wrong with crying alone.

everybody sure have done it.

and so do you.

and.

i wish you,

i wish myself.

TO HAVE OUR OWN FAIRYTALE.

AND LIVING IN IT.

p/s: i love you and i wish for our own happy ending and fairytale.

TRIBUTE TO: MUHAMMAD NUR ASYRAF BIN SO'AD

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zaman dahulu kala..[part 2]

5J
loqlaq geng. *peeps!!ingt perjanjian!!! 2017 oke!!*

assalamuailaikum MALAYSIA!!!!!

haha sory yer miss kawaii ngantok giler smalam.

so..

mari kte smbung citer yg tergantung tuhh;

oooo~ermmmmm~hahhh!!!

so lpas recess maka masok la sumer ke dlm klas.

it's english time(hehe) sbjek feveret km muahaha *wueekkk idok lew feveret*

"CLASS STAND" penolong ketua klas command* (btw miss kawaii la pnolong ketua klas tuhhh ;) )

msok la 'mama ju' *sory yer pn jur...ini yg km pnggil anda dlu*

dgn pkaiannyer yg serba sumer satu kaler...dr tdung,eyeliner,brooch,kasut dan handbag.

"assalamualaikum class...so today we're going to do.....THE PEARL."

"blaaaa....bliiiii...bleeeee....bloooooo"*pnat sudeyh die mmbebel..maka"

kalo la kalian sumer ade kt klas tuhh..anda akn mlihat...

sumer murid...BAPAK HIPOKRIT!!!

wat2 dnga...wat2 ske jerh kt mama ju tuhhh pdhal;

dlm ati msing2 :"mak aih,perlu ke citer psal ank kmbar die tuhh"

bincang pnye bincang....ckp psal coyotito la....ape la...hehe maka klas pown abes.

tp;

satu mnde yg pling saye ingt mama ju kate: "one day when you're out there,you're going to miss your school life the most"

and indeed it is true....tq mama ju...you've actually teach us a lot. there's more to life than just excel in your studies :]

hurrmmm~pastuh ade la klas lg..

klas yg pling x ley blah yg saye ingt adalah klas PN. YANG.

mne x nyer.....stiap kali klas die, ade jerh yg mkn la....minum la....tdo pown ade koyt"*saye la tuhh..hehe*

die aja beshhh...cme...biase la...da tnga ari rembang....tdo mlm kul2...kul 3 pg..mne x ngantok waktu gitu..

die plak nmpk tp slalu cm diam jerh...

tp skali die mara,perghhhh sumer org takot koyt.

"btol la org kate,org yg jrg2 mara nehhh...skali die mara,sume akn takot,tkejut"

tetibe...suddenly out of nowhere...suatu bnyi berkumandang;

kring!!kringg!!!!

yesh!!!!! da abes...time to blik..weeehhhhooooo!!!! :]

blik kul 2.15 gitu...tp cm biase la..pak lah xkn dtg awl..

byk maa shift die...

skola rendah die amek..

skola mnengah die amek....

jd km pown tggu la d bwh pohon nan redop kn...

jln2 p kt skola brahim...

cehhh jln la dgn membe name 'a' nehhh..

sesudah mbeli blah d tpi jln tuhhh...*ohhh tringt apom blik yg sgt sdap tuhhh...ermmmm*

bnyi kereta paklah pown berkumandang..

ini mnandakan saye,mesya n malin hrus pulang..

pastuhhh on da way blik tuhhh...

pnggung mmg x rse seat la...sempit pnye psal....

haha terhimpit-himpit..

lalu...

smpai la d umah...landing time;

bkak kain,ltak beg kt tpi...TV MARI!!!!(mase tuhh ikot liontin)

heee~

itu lew rutin sharian ktika hidop d zaman persekolahan.

duit x yah risaw.

mkn x yah bimbang.

keje x wat, esk pagi g klas tiru arr membe pnye keje.

g tuisyen blik tuisyen ade yg mnghantar.

duit sewa x yah risaw.

life is simpler back then.

life is less dramatic.

full of joy.

ade membe2 satu pale..

bile kt u nehhh...

da laen..

ade jerh yg satu pale...tp da x sejiwa..

ssah la nk cr yg btol2 sejiwa..

tp itu la namenyer idop...

bile da besar kte blaja yg idop dahulu itu lbey mudah.

kini,

kte blaja utk bdiri sndri.

kte blaja utk bpikir sndri.

baek burok...mak ayh da x tanggung.

wat salah, abes kuat die mara jp...bebel jp..

pastuhhh cool la blik.

kte harus taw utk pkir sndri.

mk ayh da siapkn kte ckop..

jgn slahkan diorg.

sumer ats individu.

bak kate nabil;

LU PIKIR LA SENDIRI.

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zaman dahulu kala..

rachel,afiqah,miss kawaii

huhu~pnat sudeyh saye stdy mlm nehhh. suda natasha amir hamzah,ckop la anda bkeje ari nehh*tepok bahu sndri hehe clap!clap!*

ari nehh miss natasha a.k.a mrs nakamure (nk jgak) akn story ttg zman muda-mudi: zman berpoya-poya bsame teman2 ahaks~

di atas mrupakan gamba yg diambil pd 2007 kire2 3 taun lpas arrr...

xde la lame pown kn????

skunk pown still mude g what???!!!

*mari imbas kmbali*

2007;

tiap2 pg bgun pkul 5.30...( awl wooo~);mandi,solat subuh bgai...

pastuh dlm kul 6.15 gitu terconggok la dpn pintu umah mnunggu siren yg merdu d awl pg....

HONK!HONK!HONK!

stelah bnyi itu didngari maka....dgn pnuh ketangkasan dan keazaman daku mlangkah kuar dr umah.....eyh eyh eyh....jgn lupe salam mama dlu...duit skola: rm2.00 huhu~

lalu ku ikuti asal bnyi merdu td; KERETA PAK LAH.

iye rkan2...saye ke skola dgn prkhidmatan pak lah *tq pak lah*

mronda sane,mronda sini..sinun..sinan...sinin...amek knak2 sume lalu....dlm kul 6.45 saye pown smpai la smk convent father barre yg disayangi..

sesuda smpai tuhhh...ape lg...

afiqah shukor,x pown madhanna lew yg mnjadi mngsa. MANGSA APA????

"MANGSA PNAT2 WAT KEJE ADD MATH,ORG LAEN TIRU GITU JERHHH"

*haha saye adalah antara pelanggan setia mereka*

tiru pnye tiru..gaye da ciap...loceng pown bnyi.

mse tok berbaris(aish~sape plak nk bebel pg neh???) pngawas pown dtg check klas.....siap halau g sumer org...

"kuar!kuar! g perhimpunan"

klas saye 5 Jujur....bratur laa tpi bdak form 4 ngan form 3..klas ape x ingt tp slalu saye n the geng bratur blakang skali arrr(km otai maaaa...hik3)

abes bebelan sumer....

km msok klas. blaja laa....blaja itu...blaja ini...

pdhal, dlm otak tggu recess:maw dok sme geng2 klas laen,gosip2 itu,gosip2 ini.

pd mase nehh la pling ngantok;tok org yg x ambik breakfast cm saye...pergghhh! mmg lapo koyt.

tetibe.

kring!!!kring!!!

recess time!!!ooo yea bebeh!!

attack kantin dlu...karang lmbt x smpat mkn. almaklum la...kntin kcik jerh maaa...

bli pnye bli...mse nehh jgak la dtg kwn bduyun-duyun, dok dpn kter....pastuh owg blakang muke ketat jerhhh...mara member kte potong line haha ;)

nk wat cmne?? sape suh ko x jd membe aku :]

pastuh...hal meja plak;haish~ kwsan kcik,meja terhad. jd.

bli bngkus mkn la kt pdg ke...kt buaian ke...(da naseb huhu)

pastuh;

bnyi lg. KRING!!KRING!!!

msok la ke klas blik.

haih~mate brat koyt. esk la saye smbunk ye...do follow ;))

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